Mrs. Pinterest

The title of this blog is the best I could come up with as far as the conclusion I came to this weekend.

I don't know if it's a strong enough title to really fit the entirety of this post, but it'll do.

I realized this past week that as much as I need time alone with my husband (sans kiddos), I also need time alone without husband AND kiddos.

I mean seriously...

I told Nick I wanted to go out for a drink on Saturday night with a girlfriend after a birthday party we attended for Dannika.

My friend Steph and I ended up walking to a little brewery down the street from her house called "Hopsters" to just hang out.

It was SO nice to sit and have adult conversation with a like minded woman over adult beverages.

Steph is a full time law school student with two kids, and her husband is a Marine attending Harvard.

I could write a whole blog post on how the two of them ended up here, but I won't!

We don't hang out nearly as much as we should because she lives closer to Boston, and it's hard for me to get out there.

Also the craziness of her and her husband being in school and raising two kids makes it tough to fit time with each other into our lives!

It was nice to just unload on each other about life, marriage, kids, and the miserable Boston winter...lol.

I told her about what I was going through with "losing my identity" when I became a stay at home mom, and how hard that was.

We both came to the conclusion that both of us are really not meant to be "stay at home moms".

She came to this realization after being a stay at home mom for the first year of her daughter's life, so she decided to go to law school!

I decided I am going back to school in the Fall to give me some purpose that is meaningful to me in life besides just "mom to 2 BEAUTIFUL kids" and "Marine wife".

I know some women are just born to be "Mrs. Pinterest", and I am not.

So until the Fall, I am just going to soak up the time I have with my kiddos, and get ready to start my next chapter in life.

Crazy that in just one evening alone with a friend without the distractions of husbands and kids could make me see all of this!

3 Conclusions I came to this weekend:

1) My husband and I NEED date nights at least twice a month with NO kids and NO interruptions. 

We seriously had the best conversation on Friday night when we went out.

I hired an official family baby sitter this week.

She's a high school student who came by yesterday to do a "trial run".

I left her alone with both kids for two hours while Nick and I went to go watch the new 300 movie.

We came home, both kids were happy, the house wasn't burned to the ground, and Nick and I got to go see a movie alone!

SCORE!

2) I really need to get out and hang out with like minded adults more often without the husband and kids.

As I mentioned above, my time out with Steph made me realize so much more about what I was going through and this "rut" I've been in.

I mean, I can tell my husband anything, but at the end of the day, he's not a woman, so he can't really understand EVERYTHING that I'm feeling.

3) As much as I love my kids and being home with them, I'm not cut out for it.

For the sake of my sanity and happiness, I need a little more in my life.

I need something to give me more purpose in my life.

I'll start with going back to school.

I'm starting ALL over.

I could use my Marine Corps stuff and get a degree in something related to aviation in 1-2 years, but I don't want to do that.

I want to start as a freshman, and start ALL OVER.

And Lastly....

Some pics of my adorable family from the weekend.

We attended a birthday party in Boston for a friend of Dannika's at an indoor playground called "My Gym".

Mattis sat on the sidelines watching all the "big kids" run around, climb on things, and go wild.

He kept grunting at them, and reaching for them.

Poor guy wanted to play with them so bad.

One day little man...one day.

My 4 year old got her second hair cut ever!

Her first blow out...

The final product.

I hope y'all had a great weekend!