Monday, March 25, 2013

Easter Egg Hunts and 29

We took D to our church's Easter Egg Hunt on Saturday.
As cute as we both look, we were F-REEZING!
I swear it was 25 degrees and the wind chill was ridiculous.
This was definitely a first for us.
Before this past Saturday, I can honestly say, I have never hunted for Easter eggs in the snow.
Ah...the things we do for our kids.
Once D started looking for eggs, she forgot all about the cold and ended up having a blast.
I guess in the end, that is all that matters.

I bought D a cute little Easter dress this weekend to wear to church next Sunday, and I don't care how cold it is, she is gonna wear that darn dress and like it!
No one makes cute "Winter Easter dresses", so D will be in her cute Springy Easter dress in the Winter weather of New England.

Before y'all go all crazy on me...I did buy her some tights and a cardigan to wear with her dress.

With all the crazy Easter Egg hunts, pretty dresses, and Easter candy going on, I hope and pray that people don't forget the real meaning of Easter.
If you've never truly heard the story of the Passion, it's a heart breaking, gut wrenching, and painful story with one of the most beautiful beginnings (not ending) of everlasting life. 

Just remember, if it weren't for Jesus, there would be no Easter, creepy Easter bunnies, Easter egg hunts, and Cadbury eggs.

So before you take your kids out on the Easter egg hunt, take a moment to talk to them about why we celebrate Easter.

And yes, I am the big TWO NINE today :-)
Thanks for all the Facebook love.
I truly am one lucky gal to live the life I live.

Random pics from our Weekend...

My Jeep! Washed for the first time since November! Seriously, the snow, slush, salt, and crappy Winter make it hard to keep a black vehicle clean here during the snowy months!

 D's Easter basket

Ready for church!

18 week baby bump. I'm barely showing. I was wearing full blown maternity clothes with D at 15 weeks!

My husband FINALLY retired his Blackberry and got an iPhone5! He has the black one, and I got the white one! We can send emojis to each other now, and most importantly, Facetime. I think I shall Facetime him from now on instead of call him...lol.

I've never been a scarf person, but ever since moving out here, I have become an avid "scarf wearer".


Have a blessed week!

Friday, March 22, 2013

Hoping For a Better Attitude

I hate to sound like such a "Debbie downer".
Especially since I spent the last three years dreaming (and blogging) about the day I could be a stay at home mom and be WITH my husband.
But I use my blog as a way to get my thoughts out, and most of the time, once I see it published, I start to feel a little better and start seeing the bigger picture more clearly.

So.
Here. It. Goes.

I dislike it here...a lot. 
I wish I could use the word "hate", but I'm trying my best to take that word out of my vocabulary.
I've been trying to make the best of my situation, but a girl can only put on her fake smile so many times.
I broke down yesterday to my husband.
It started with a disagreement about something trivial, but it was just an outlet for me to finally let all the emotions behind my fake smile come out.
 The weather has turned me into a complete "winter hermit".
I HATE dislike leaving my house, freezing, and ruining a perfectly good pair of Uggs cause the parking lot at Trader Joe's wasn't properly cleared of the nasty, slushy, gray, melting snow.
I miss being able to take my daughter to the park any day of the week in my flip flops.
I miss my old church (although we found a great one out here).
I miss the laid back attitudes of California and the Texas "twangs" back home.

I'm tired of everyone telling me, "it'll get better once you make friends!" or "it'll get better once the weather warms up!"

The Marine Corps has sent be everywhere from Iraq to Alaska (and everywhere in between).
I've been in 11 different countries and cities around the world, and I have always gone with a positive attitude and a sense of adventure.
I even made the best of my time in Iraq, and I have found myself reminiscing about my time there.

But for WHATEVER reason, I. Just. Can't. Find. My. Sense. Of. Adventure. Here. 
I find myself dreaming of the day when we leave New England, and I tell myself, "This is just temporary."

Sometimes I feel like I wasn't cut out to be a "Marine Wife" because I'm so stuck in my ways as a Marine.
I've never had to "follow" my husband anywhere, and I've never been forced to do anything because of my husband's job.
The Marine Corps has always decided all of that for me, and if it didn't work with what the Corps decided for him....tough cookies....oh well....this sucks....life went on.
In a way, being a Marine made me selfish.
Sure, I sacrificed months and months of time with my husband, and I dreaded every deployment, every field op, and every training evolution that he wasn't home.
Sure, I absolutely despised playing "single mom" for the majority of my daughter's life so far.
BUT...at least, I was doing "my own thing" with "my own career" wearing "my own uniform".

I'm hoping getting more involved with church will help me get out of this funk.

And don't get me wrong...
I LOVE the fact that my husband has somewhat of a "normal" job for now.
I am THANKFUL that he won't deploy for at least the next 3 years.
And I am loving the time we are having as a family, and I wouldn't trade it for anything.

I just need lots of prayers to see God's purpose for putting us here instead of Texas like we had planned.

I was so not cut out for New England though...
(no offense to anyone who's from here, who thinks I'm crazy for not thinking this place is wonderful...)


Besides this "attitude" problem I am currently experiencing about New England, I am really enjoying all the fun things I get to do at home all day with my daughter.
 

A fellow Korean on my Facebook mentioned that my daughter looked like a Korean "ahjuma" in this pic....lol. (I guess you have to be Korean to really think it's funny)


Breakfast in our jammies on the couch under a big nice warm blanket.






Thursday, March 21, 2013

General Mattis

 Clearly one of the most memorable and influential Generals of our time. 
I wish more senior leadership in the the Marine Corps/military would be like him.
He was simply a leader and not a politician. 
Marines don't need politicians wearing the same uniform as them.
There's enough politicians sitting in nice cushy chairs in D.C. making horrible decisions on their behalf.
What the Marine Corps really needs is a good, solid, and strong leader like General Mattis who won't care about political correctness all the time, and yet have a grace about him that can't help but be admired.
So sad to see such an amazing leader leave the Corps, but the legacy and footprint he's left behind is like no other.

Here's an article written in the Marine Corps Times about him that gives a small snapshot into what kind of man he really was.



MARINE CORPS TIMES
The man. The myths. Mattis
As ‘Chaos’ retires, Marines recall influential general’s defining moments, deep bond with rank and file
By Dan Lamothe - Staff writer
Posted : Sunday Mar 17, 2013 10:16:03 EDT
Gen. James Mattis held court in the MacDill Air Force Base theater on one of the last days of his career, speaking to a group of more than 200 service members and civilians. He credited noncommissioned officers with showing him the ropes early on and warned that the U.S. can’t be sure what armed conflict it will be engaged in next, but kept the mood light by mixing in some of his trademark wit.
Asked what worried him, the general motioned to the stars on his collar and offered a one-liner evoking the long shadow he casts. “I don’t worry about stress,” Mattis said, according to a Marine in the room for the March 8 all-hands meeting in Tampa. “I create it.”
Even if that quote is off by a word — media wasn’t invited to the event — it’s this combination of gruffness and humor that has helped make Mattis the most revered Marine general in at least a generation. Disagree? Name one other individual who is almost universally praised by everyone from lance corporals to his fellow four-stars. Name one other leader whose blunt speech has inspired tattoos, doting Web pages and tongue-in-cheek calls from admirers for a 2016 presidential campaign — one that probably would gain traction if Mattis had any interest.
Since 2010, the general known by the call sign “Chaos” has run U.S. Central Command, overseeing the war in Afghanistan and other military activity throughout the Middle East. On March 22, nearly 10 years to the day after he led 1st Marine Division during the ground invasion of Iraq, Mattis will be replaced by Army Gen. Lloyd Austin and retire. Thus ends one of the most dynamic careers for a general officer since the late Lt. Gen. Lewis “Chesty” Puller hung up his uniform in 1955.
Mattis doesn’t like the attention. He has been cryptic about his future ever since word surfaced late last year that Austin had been selected to replace him. During testimony March 5 before the Senate Armed Services Committee, he offered a typical response to Sen. Lindsey Graham, R.-S.C., who inquired about the general’s retirement plans.
“I have no idea right now, senator,” he said. “But it’s going to be a lot of fun.”
In a March 14 email to Marine Corps Times, Mattis said he prefers to end his 41-year career quietly.
“I’ve had some ‘riotous excursions of the human spirit’ alongside the young Sailors and Marines and it’s time to leave the stage to the young leaders who got their rank the old-fashioned way — they earned their stripes in combat,” Mattis said. “The Corps is in good hands, and it’s been a privilege to serve with the Leathernecks. Now it’s time to go.”
BATTLEFIELD SUCCESS
Mattis will be remembered in no small part because of his Marines’ battlefield success. He first became known nationally as a one-star in late 2001, when the order came from Washington to amass forces for an invasion of Afghanistan. At the time, he was leading forces through Bright Star, a multinational training exercise in Egypt.
With Mattis in charge, the 15th Marine Expeditionary Unit, out of Camp Pendleton, Calif., became the framework for Task Force 58, a larger Marine air-ground task force that also included the 26th MEU, out of Camp Lejeune, N.C. In the following weeks, Mattis oversaw the deepest insertion of Marines into a combat zone in U.S. history. More than 1,000 Marines were in Kandahar province within a week of the mission, which launched Nov. 25, 2001.
“The Marines have landed,” Mattis said, according to embedded reports at the time, “and we now own a piece of Afghanistan.”
The following year, Mattis prepared to lead 1st MARDIV into Iraq. In late 2002, he deployed with a staff of fewer than 100 to Kuwait and returned ahead of the March 20, 2003, push over the berm, said Brig. Gen. Paul Kennedy, then a lieutenant colonel working under the general.
Mattis pressed his planners to grasp the intricacies of a massive ground invasion, said Kennedy, now the director of the Division of Public Affairs at Marine Corps headquarters. Artillery, fuel and other requirements all would take up space in convoys that would span miles, Mattis stressed.
Before deploying, division staff conducted numerous rehearsal drills — some using Lego blocks to represent units — to assess challenges it would face. In Kuwait, Mattis had an area bulldozed and turned into a stadium-sized terrain model, said Col. Mike Groen, another lieutenant colonel and planner on Mattis’ staff at the time. Rubber tubing served as roads and cinder blocks as cities. Inside, Marine officers navigated the labyrinth wearing jerseys to represent their units.
“He always was a week ahead of everyone else,” said Groen, who is now the director of the Corps’ strategic initiatives group and was recently selected for brigadier general. “He would tell you to do something, and you would scratch your head and say, ‘Hmm, I don’t really understand why we’re doing this.’ Three, four, five days later, the light bulb would go off and you would say, ‘Holy smoke, this is what he was talking about!’ ”
Mattis also inspired his Marines with a one-page letter that summed up his commander’s intent. Many kept it tucked away in their body armor, said Lt. Col. Joseph Plenzler, a captain in 2003 who served as Mattis’ public affairs officer. The letter included an order that has become a catchphrase reprinted on bumper stickers, posters and T-shirts all over the country.
“Demonstrate to the world,” Mattis said, “there is ‘No Better Friend, No Worse Enemy’ than a U.S. Marine.”
FAITH IN HIS PEOPLE
Mattis’ popularity extends beyond his forces’ success, however. For one, he emphatically showed faith in rank-and-file service members, stressing that they are key to military success. He’s hardly alone in this regard — retired Commandant Gen. Charles Krulak developed the “strategic corporal” concept in the 1990s, among many examples — but Mattis’ propensity for doing so resonates.
In one lesser-known instance in 2001, then-Brig. Gen. Mattis ordered Marines to keep their weapons in Condition 1 — magazine inserted, round in chamber — while deployed for exercise Bright Star, where tensions were high after the 9/11 terrorist attacks on the U.S. He counseled a couple of Marines who didn’t adhere to the order responsibly, but otherwise relied on the competency of his personnel, said Plenzler, now the spokesman for Commandant Gen. Jim Amos.
“It blew us away as young officers,” Plenzler said. “There we were, sleeping with loaded pistols under your pillow.”
Mattis fearlessly traveled the Iraq battlefield in 2003 and 2004, relying on his “jump platoon” while getting into rolling firefights outside the wire, said Col. Brennan Byrne, who commanded Camp Pendleton’s 1st Battalion, 5th Marines, in Iraq under Mattis. At times his unit took casualties, but he refused to stop checking on how his Marines were doing.
“He has imprinted an entire generation of Marines with regard to engaged, decisive combat leadership,” said Brennan, now the chief of staff for 1st Marine Expeditionary Brigade. “As Marines, we could never have been better served by his command.”
Mattis’ trust for his troops made its way into the U.S. military doctrine, as well. After becoming deputy commandant for combat development and integration, he co-wrote the counterinsurgency manual with now-retired Army Gen. David Petraeus, who was then a three-star officer overseeing Army training.
Mattis’ disciples argue to this day that Petraeus unfairly received too much credit for that work after adopting many of the principles in Iraq. Kennedy said the initial order Mattis wrote for 1st MARDIV in April 2003 was “Counterinsurgency 101,” urging Marines to treat the Iraqi people with respect while watching out for their own safety.
“It is exactly what you see in the current counterinsurgency manual, and other people have been given credit for it,” Kennedy said.
Mattis has deflected praise for his role in creating the manual, saying he had “at best an indirect, perhaps intellectual or training impact” on its adoption, while Petraeus later adopted it on the ground.
“We looked for what was working, accumulated it into the doctrine and passed it out, largely written by NCOs and officers fresh from their searing experiences in Iraq,” Mattis said.
‘I DIDN’T BRING ARTILLERY …’
There are, of course, the “Mattis-isms.” That is, the many salty, inspirational or otherwise eye-opening statements Mattis has uttered — in combat and in the U.S. — since becoming a senior officer. At times, they’ve earned him criticism from other senior officers, even as rank-and-file Marines cheer candor they say reflects the horrors of war.
Take that proclamation Mattis made after his Marines landed in Afghanistan. It ruffled feathers in Washington and earned an admonishment from higher ups. Mattis later contended in a 2006 speech at the Naval Academy that a journalist left out some context after asking about the turf the Marines had taken.
“I said, ‘Well it kind of means we own it. We’re going to give it back to the Afghan people,’ ” Mattis told the crowd, according to a transcript of the event. “When the word came out, they left the last part off: [It was just] I owned a piece of Afghanistan. Well, I don’t have to initiate a salute with many people, but I think every one of them lined up to tell me that I would never make it to the top of your class intellectually, and [they] had other comments about my capabilities.”
It’s just one example of Mattis’ brash comments raising eyebrows. Most significantly, he sparked controversy in 2005 while speaking at an open forum in San Diego.
“You go into Afghanistan, you got guys who slap women around for five years because they didn’t wear a veil,” he said. “You know, guys like that ain’t got no manhood left anyway. So it’s a hell of a lot of fun to shoot them. Actually, it’s a lot of fun to fight. You know, it’s a hell of a hoot. It’s fun to shoot some people. I’ll be right upfront with you, I like brawling.”
The remark was rebuked by Commandant Gen. Michael Hagee, and raised questions as to whether Mattis would be promoted again. There are other examples, though. Perhaps no quote captured his professional duality — intellectual thinker, salty commander — better than those in the 2006 book “Fiasco: The American Military Adventure in Iraq,” by war correspondent Thomas Ricks. Meeting with Iraqi military leaders in 2003, Ricks reported, Mattis offered a chance to collaborate along with a chilling warning.
“I come in peace,” he said. “I didn’t bring artillery. But I’m pleading with you, with tears in my eyes: If you f--- with me, I’ll kill you all.”
Mattis’ star continued to rise despite the controversies. He was promoted to his current rank in 2007 when he became the commander of U.S. Joint Forces Command. It was widely reported he was a finalist to become the Corps’ commandant in 2010, but he was bypassed in favor of Amos, who already had served as assistant commandant. Mattis became the head of CENTCOM instead, keeping a lower profile while traveling the world to meet with kings, prime ministers and generals.
Ricks speculated in January that Mattis was originally planning to retire in August, but was pushed out early by the White House because he thought the U.S. wasn’t thinking through its long-term policy on Iran clearly enough. White House officials disputed the report, and Mattis has declined to discuss what happened.
Still, perhaps the way Mattis is retiring seals his legacy as the most popular general in decades. Had he become commandant, he’d have been faced with a menu of unpopular choices — something Amos and other Marine brass know all too well. War is hell, but it’s much more difficult for rank-and-file Marines to embrace their service shrinking before their eyes.
Gen. John Kelly, who served as Mattis’ one-star deputy commander during the invasion of Iraq, told Marine Corps Times that Mattis will go out as a brilliant commander who insisted on speaking honestly.
“Only a few guys like them come along per generation,” Kelly said, citing Gens. Joseph Dunford and John Allen as others. “They are brilliant. They are dedicated. They are selflessly devoted to their duties. ... They give their unvarnished opinions and recommendations when asked by their political masters or the Congress, then salute and, to their deaths, will carry out the orders they are given. We are less as an institution when men like these ‘go over the side,’ as we Marines say, ‘for the last time.’”
Staff writer Gidget Fuentes contributed to this report.

Monday, March 18, 2013

PT, PT...

A lot about me has changed in the short time I have been a veteran, but the one thing that remains constant in my life is my passion for health and fitness.
To me, it's not just about vanity (although, I do love the way I look in a pair of great fitting jeans when I am at my fittest), but it's about being healthy and feeling good.
If you know me, you know the struggles I've had with various injuries from my years and years of running long distance without the proper weight training to sustain my constant strain and pounding on my knees. 
My knee injury was a huge factor in my discharge from the Marine Corps, and the damage is so bad, that there's really no "cure" for what I've done to it.
So while my days of going on my daily 6-10 mile runs are over and kaput, I have found other great ways to stay fit and feeling great.
Spinning and Crossfit are my two FAVORITE things EVER, and I'm lucky to have my own spin bike and Crossfit equipment in the comfort of my own home to work out.
To be honest, these two types of work outs that I prefer now are so much better for my body than running constantly, and I've seen better results as far as tone and muscle.
It also makes my life "mommy" friendly and way easier than joining a gym with a 3 year old.
I don't like going by gym child care hours because I like to work out when I want to work out...sometimes it's at 0800 and sometimes it's at noon! 
This is one huge adjustment from my past life.
I used to go the gym during my lunch break at work at the on base gym without having to worry about my daughter since she was in preschool. 
It's also important to me that my daughter learn from an early age the importance of staying fit and healthy.
She's at an age where she emulates what she sees everyone else doing, and I am hoping that her constantly seeing my daily routine of hitting my work out every day will become normal for her life as well.
She's already a great little work out buddy, and loves to lift weights with me!

I plan on continuing with the same level of intensity of work out throughout my pregnancy!
I was the crazy, 9 months pregnant lady running 3 miles of hills just days before I gave birth...seriously!
I can't wait to see what my body allows me to do throughout this one!

Sunday, March 17, 2013

St. Patrick's Day 2013

Happy St. Patrick's Day!
No, I'm not Irish...just straight Korean.
Nick, however, MIGHT be. 
He's a little confused about his heritage....
He claims English (that's a given), German, and Scottish...but he's not entirely sure about anything else.
And me, (being the racist that I am) have decided that since he is "Caucasian", he MUST have SOME Irish in him.
No, but seriously, I LOVE any reason to be festive and celebrate.
To me, it's a way to make memories with my family, so today was no different. 
Enjoy our pics from our Irish weekend!

Just a pic of Nick and I before leaving the house for church this mornin'

This is hilarious, and I'm sure D will think so in a few years. She was having an attitude with us at the grocery store, so Nick put her in time out....in the floral department. 

My St. Patrick's Day carnations from Nick and Dannika :-)

A beautiful orchid I got as a gift from our landlord for Christmas. I've never kept a plant alive this long in my entire life!!!

Our Irish dinner....Irish bangers, fried cabbage, and garlic mashed potatoes...with green beverages all around for us!

Nick's beer had a 3 leaf clover in it!

I made a healthy green vanilla cake for dessert (no oil or eggs...just greek yogurt and water!)

D helping me make green frosting


Lots of sprinkles!
 

Frosting the cake

Enjoying the cake with daddy




Hope y'all had a fabulous weekend! Just two more weekends till Easter!